So after almost struggling for a month and a half we found a help - given the crazy demand for baby sitters - we were happy to find one through a reliable connection and I had started to imagine what all can I do in my free time :D
She had a problem with cleaning Riaan's poop - this was the first thing she said "Didi mai Potty clean nahi karungi" and I was like okk...then I thought its kinda normal for a new person to feel the same...I mean I wouldn't have done it too...so I said thats ok...we'll take care of it. Then my MIL asked her if she would bathe him and she was like "aunty...mujhe darr lagta hai...baby slip ho gaya to"...my heart rate jumped a bit...and I decided right then I'm not giving Riaan to her for bathing ever.
I thought - forget bathing and diaper change...atleast she'll look after him in terms of making him sleep or feeding him milk when I'm not around...but it seems she had different plans. So the way it was turning out to be was...Riaan used to fall asleep having his milk and then till he wakes up there was nothing much to do - she used to love watching TV and she used to ask me to put some daily soap to watch. Initially I thought that its ok half n hour of TV is harmless...let her have some chill time but she used to be literally glued to the TV once it was on. Like once Riaan woke up and he started to cry...I was in the loo taking a shower and when it was over 5 mins and he did not stop crying I just rushed out to see what is wrong.And there she was watching tv...patting him with her hands but face towards the TV and I was like WHAT the heck - am I paying her to do this??
I mean she was hired to take care of the baby and that seemed to be her last priority...so just in a matter of 5 days I had to send her back... and that lead me to an extremely apprehensive outlook towards baby sitters - I mean I don't think I would be able to trust someone until that lady is really really good and committed towards her job and that too with supervision.
Around the same time I got my first call for an interview and I was in a fix....I did not expect any calls to come this soon and I think by now you must have understood the kind of person I am...I tend to think way ahead of the situation which isn't exactly required every time but I still do it...so here again...I got worried...I do not have a help...the baby is barely 2 months old...how can I take a job this soon...and then on second thoughts...the office of that organization was quite close to my house and it seemed to be a great workplace based on reviews I had got from some people I knew who worked there.I was in a big time dilemma...what should I do??
A part of me wanted to jump at the opportunity and while the other was thinking that I am being too selfish...I should be taking care of my baby...I will not get this time again.I did not want to rush into anything so I decided to ask for a week's time for an interview - I obviously had to cook some story to make that work but the HR agreed and I got my time to think.
In between we had a trip planned for the coming weekend with my parents - my first trip with my parents after marriage - so it was special :) We were going to Agra and I was super excited as I was traveling after almost a year but also nervous as we had Riaan with us and we were absolutely clueless about how is it going to be with him!
Before this trip was his 2nd vaccination too...this time I was better prepared though but still it is always painful to see your lil one cry that badly when he gets one.The doctor warned me that he might get some fever and I was like shit...we need to travel tomorrow and that is the last thing I want.I still had my packing to do...my hubby had a crazy routine the entire week so he was running late..it was all on me.
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