So we were nearing the end of the week. We had our first appointment with the pediatrician and I was really happy with the doctor - he seemed like a very chilled out, friendly and no air kind of a doctor! I like such people and so does my baby I think...he smiles at him every time they meet :)
The first thing they do is check the baby's weight and it was quite reassuring to see that my baby weighed a bit higher than when we took him home...I would have been heart broken if his weight would have come down (Proof you are a mother now - obsessed about baby's weight already!!)
Also,when you visit your Pediatrician for the first time with the baby you are full of questions - Why does the baby cry so much? How do we know why is crying - What does he need? How much should we feed him? How much should he sleep? Is he sleeping too much or too less? The list just goes on and on....so you need a really patient doctor to hear all of this and we were lucky to have one :)
He told us 4 basic reasons why babies cry at this early a stage:
1.They are hungry 2. They need a diaper change 3.They need to sleep 4.They need to be held (Godi - as we call it)
We felt better, now we just had to figure which out the four options is the correct answer - real life KBC!!
Then he gave us a list of emergency meds we would need to keep handy for the baby for Nose blockage, Fever and Colic. He also had to go through a small blood test - "Babyshield 5" - which is basically done to detect any hidden genetic or metabolism related disorders the baby has and its recommended to get this test done as if there is any issue - early treatment can be a life saver. It was painful to hear my baby cry when they took his blood - the doctor had actually asked me to stay out as he was like being a new mom you won't be able to see that yet and I guess he was right...I just wanted to take my baby away from them.It's so disturbing to see your baby in pain..I hugged him so tight once he was out.
A beautiful quote sums it up - "The moment a child is born, a mother is born also" and this is sooo true because before this I had never felt these emotions for anyone - how much ever I had loved my family and friends but this kind of a strong feeling had never hit me. Though I was not really in that all rosy mommy phase - I was still struggling to accept the way my life had turned around - but now when I look back, these subtle changes had started to happen within me...the mother in me was taking over!
Back home my aunty and sister had come over to meet us. They all had been vital to my happiness in life and especially in last one year...so you feel healed already in the presence of such people...though I was not allowed to laugh out aloud as I like but there was this cheerful energy about my room at that time and I badly needed that. The best part of the evening was my baby's mind blowing expressions when my aunt picked him up...it almost felt like as if he is trying to say "Are you sure about what you're doing?? Can I trust you?" I still laugh when I see these pics...going to get these framed for sure!!
The week was about to end - I had my check up the following day and I was worried as to how much will it pain when my doctor removes the dressing over my stitches.Thankfully it did not pain at all :) That's such a happy feeling when you are expecting pain :P I had my issues to discuss with her...first and foremost was obviously my feeding problem - not getting enough milk - she recommended some supplement and my hopes were high again - that this is going to be it...now I will be able to feed my son.Rest all was standard iron and calcium supplements and pain killers if needed. I had intentionally stopped taking pain killers as I did not want to get used to them.I finally got permission to use soap as well - I could finally wash my stinky sticky hair after good 1 whole week - and I felt so good after washing my hair I couldn't resist taking a selfie!!
I was already dreading Monday - no office for me but my husband had to join back which meant it will only be me, baby and my MIL.Not exactly a very comfortable scenario for me. I almost broke down but my husband comforted me - he gave me the confidence that I will be able to manage everything just fine - but I was scared. It felt like an exam for which you have no idea about the syllabus - everything is going to be hit and trial and off course the fear of being judged was taking over again!
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