My Journey of Motherhood (Part 6) - Emotions, LIZARDS and Mommy's bday

The GoT fever was still on and everyday I was getting inspired by the characters  - my emotions were on an all time high...so wether it was feeling passionately about my favorite characters in the series or relating to characters in movies...feeling excessively obsessed with my husband or angry enough to rip him apart - everything was at its extreme....just like the phrase "winter is coming" throughout GoT...in my case it  was"the baby is coming"..but I did have a timeline :P

But it was fun...I mean I don't remember the last time I felt such strong emotions - may be during college days - or the first boyfriend/break up :P like in case of my husband - there were days I used to just look at him sleeping and I used to love the sight of him...like the pre marriage era was back and all I wanted was some time alone with him...I was also scared that once the baby comes we probably wont get enough time for each other - had no clues how will we manage to keep the spark alive in our relationship...I loved the fact that he had tried a lot to make sure he was keeping me happy in terms of making me watch all the movies...letting me shop as much...getting whatever I felt like eating...but in spite of this there were days when I was seriously pissed with him...quite like below

There happened to be an offsite and he had to attend this one..and though I did pretend I was all cool about it..I was not...I was very very pissed...you leaving me behind in my 9th month is not cool...though it was only for a day...and I really do not think I should have made a big deal out of it..but like I said..I was high on emotions..so that night I barely slept...I was angry...so to distract myself I started watching a movie...felt like going to the loo...n there it was...a LIZARD!!! the worst nightmare of a pregnant woman like me...a fucking lizard and my biggest fear was...I won;t be able to run also with this bump ...I literally controlled my pee for good 3 hours after which I was like...I just have to be brave and face the damn thing...OMG...that was one hell of a pee and I was surprised by the speed at which I came running out of the loo....but this fucking lizard helped me distract my mind and sleep..so may be they are not all that bad :)

The week after was my mum's bday and we made a plan to meet at CP...so my mausis, my sister, off course mom and me...we met at tea cafe and what a session....I've rarely had a chai session better than this one...I forgot all the tiredness I was feeling when I left home...these get togethers with moms and mausis bring out the best of stories...loads of laughter and Food!! And its amazing when you see your mum acting like any other friend of yours...throwing tantrums...cracking jokes...we should do this more often...I thought and hopefully I will...once my baby lets me :D I miss it...the carefree meetings with mom and mausis...I really miss it :(

To make sure I do not feel to bad about this...God had plans..I had gone for my pre natal class as suggested by the doctor - so post the session I was all pumped up to exercise regularly...be prepared for Labour...I was all set for a normal delivery...I had my weekly check ups...everything was looking good...so one fine day my Doc suggested...lets get a scan done to check the baby position and if the loop is out yet. I was more than happy...scans are the best part of pregnancy I guess....its a pleasure to watch the lil thing growing every time :)

So by now I had got used to the crazy pee pressure during scans - my belly was huge and it felt funny when the radiologist moved around the stick (or whatever they call the thing they move around while scanning...I prefer to call it the stick)...scan results: healthy baby...no loop...head down...all well!! 

I had already imagined a plump little thing in my mind...just the way I wanted...with bouncy cheeks..cute little eyes... again like I said..Emotions - high - Happy high :D

So we showed it to our doctor in the coming week and she took us by surprise - the baby weighed on the higher side...his head was also like on the border line of what we usually consider for a normal delivery...if it grows further - it will difficult to pull out the baby said the doc...plus obv the gaining weight was also a concern if we wanted a normal delivery...so she suggested I get admitted in the hospital the coming weekend....labour induction was to be attempted to get contractions ....if that did not work out - C-sec it was then...our BABY was arriving early!!

Though it all sounded cool when she said but on my way back home it hit me big time...the baby was arriving 3 weeks before the due date initially given...I was about to go into Labor like real time in less than a week...all that pain...which I had imagined is actually going to happen...and what if the baby gets stuck in between...I was going crazy with these thoughts.Once back home my mom and MIL had their own suggestions on how to induce labour naturally.....have ghee in milk...eat Jaiphal...have kaali daal full of ghee...I almost felt what are these people doing at home...they should be at the hospital inducing labour full time :P but I was nervous...like I don't remember the last time I felt so unsure about anything...may be marriage..:D

After a week of anticipation...anxiety,.,,trials and errors (all the methods listed above had failed in my case)...I used to get calls every 2-3 hours from my mom asking for the status - it seems hilarious when I look back now...but at that time it was weird...planning on who will stay with me in the hospital...wondering what all will help me during labour...distractions....will my husband come along or may be I should ask my sister or mausi...Oh God..it was all exciting...scary...crazy all at the same time...by now I just wanted the baby out...and finally the day came!!